Mother's Day, May 10

Today I wanted to send love out to the world, especially to all of the beautiful mothers who have reached out to help me on this journey. You know who you are, and you have carried me in ways I will never forget.

It is also a hard day. Two years without my mom. And yet somehow I feel her right here beside me, walking this with me through all of the small signs that keep showing up. You start to get really, weirdly spiritual and introspective when you are suddenly faced with a complete revamp of your life. The little things stop being little.

I may have pushed it a bit today, but I wanted a proper Mother's Day. I wanted to feel as close to normal as possible. I sat in our outdoor swing for part of the afternoon, took an amazingly long shower (a true luxury right now), got dressed up, and we went to our favorite Greek restaurant, Nisi.

Johnny is conspicuously absent from the photos but he was on a quest to find me some vegetable beds. We think going back to me planting my own vegetables might be a great way to get healthy and watch life grow alongside me.

I know this is completely in my head, but at the restaurant I felt like people were looking at me wondering if I was sick. I just feel like I look sick and tired right now. I am working on being gentle with myself about that, I can say I’ve already felt a massive amount of hair loss, I have a yellow tint to my face.

The mystery gifts keep arriving. No names, just love showing up at the door. Wait until you see the collection of things I have received from so many generous people. I will share it soon because it deserves its own moment.

I want to finish this post in honor of my beautiful mother, Theresa Cicco. Mom, thank you for the gift of life. Thank you for showing me how to love. Thank you for showing me how to fight through adversity. I know you want me to stay strong and overcome any dagger that comes my way, and I promise to do exactly that. For those who didn’t already see the site I built for my mom last month, here it is: [theresacicco.com](https://theresacicco.com/)

Earlier this year I also wrote a [LinkedIn article](https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/cancer-ai-how-things-different-gogo-morris-sy48c?utm_source=share&utm_medium=member_ios&utm_campaign=share_via) about cancer and AI, and how things might be different now. If you have not read it yet, it feels especially relevant today.

Happy Mother's Day.