The Lighthouse

It’s Sunday night and I’m beaming with internal optimism and hope. These feelings are simply based on enjoying today and my intention of being present. I am also recognizing the contrast as the past three days have been some of my darkest in the 88 days of my surprise cancer diagnosis. I found myself thinking about “end of life” stuff quite a bit and I couldn’t sleep enough to stop these emotions, feelings and thoughts.

Then my husband came home from his trip to Atlanta. I felt better immediately. My post from earlier today details what brought me joy today. This evening we went to dinner at the Lighthouse in Cedar Lake (small town in Indiana) and I continued to be present and focused on joy. Then it occurred to me, there is some metaphor in all of this so I searched it on Gemini and sourced this info from Psychology Today:

A lighthouse is primarily a metaphor for unwavering guidance, hope, and safety during times of darkness, uncertainty, or crisis. It represents strength and resilience, symbolizing how a person, principle, or belief can help navigate through life's dangerous or chaotic "storms".

Wow 🤯 yes that’s about right. Next month I have decided to spend more time on the lake and even though this little town is about 9 minutes from my residence, I will be focused on being present and one with the water, the sunrises, the sunsets and the greasy breakfast food at the Sandbar. Thanks to my daughter Gina I will be practicing my affirmations and moving my thoughts away from the doom and gloom of how many chemos, surgeries, immunotherapies it will take to beat this. Something shifted today and I’ll take it.

Onward and upward. Fuck you cancer.