One piece of the puzzle: where things stand tonight

It is Thursday, April 23, 2026. I am writing this from bed at 9 PM because honestly, I cannot fall asleep.

## Where I am in the puzzle

The scans I have had so far are one piece of a much bigger picture. Today I had a liver biopsy, and those results are the next piece I am waiting on. The liver is what is causing me the most physical discomfort right now, so I am hopeful that understanding what is happening there will help my care team build the right plan.

I know people want answers fast. I want them fast too. But oncology is layered, and I am learning to let each test build on the last instead of trying to leap to conclusions.

## How I am feeling tonight

Uncomfortable. Honestly, really uncomfortable. I do not know if I overate, or if it is something else my body is doing that I do not yet have words for. My mom went through her own version of this with ovarian cancer, and tonight I am thinking about her a lot. I will share more once I know more.

## What is next

- **Friday, April 24** — oncology check-in. Dr. Sidani is out of town, so we will review what we have so far and start sketching a plan together.
- **Next week** — Dr. Sidani returns and we finalize the treatment plan based on the biopsy results.
- **Wednesday, April 30** — port installation. This is the small device that will make future treatments much easier on my body.

I will update this site as each step happens.

## A gentle ask

This is the part I need to say out loud, with love.

I cannot have 45 individual conversations or answer 45 separate text threads about surgery, treatment options, what someone's cousin tried, or what I should eat. I just do not have the energy, and I need to save what I have for healing and for the people physically caring for me.

That is exactly why I built this site. **Please come here first.** Read the latest entry. Check the "what's next" section at the top of the homepage. Leave me a note on the Messages page, I read every one and they mean the world, but please do not expect a reply to each one. If you want to help in a concrete way, ask my husband or my closest circle, they are coordinating.

I love you. I am learning as I go. I will not get everything right. But I am going to keep showing up here, in my own words, for as long as I can.

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